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MONGOOSE of the goose family

Sunday, February 12, 2006

i have moved.
http://claudiarocks.livejournal.com

ahh.see you there.
will some smart soul teach me hw to change my livejournal template?im hopeless.

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:35 AM
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Monday, February 06, 2006

what is love and how much do i know about it?not much at all i believe.sometimes i dont even know if i make the right decisions.
ytd i watch tian shi wo ai ni and it was so nice.damn sad.and fiona xie said that its always better to love someone more than
they love you.i guess to a certain extent that is true.but its so sad if love becomes more like a business dealing than just giving
freely.but what if you give so much and get hurt in the end,whats the point?in tian shi wo ai ni,fiona xie just wanted a simple
white realationship,but qiyuwu was a flirt and she couldnt take it.after a fight they broke up.but she taught him how to love.
he never really forgot her.she was so sad.if she had not put in so much feelings into this relationship,maybe she wouldnt
be as hurt?i dont know.ROAR.cant you just leave me alone and stop asking me to choose?i want to tear my hair out already!
anw,afterall i told you i will try my best.
campcraft sucks!haha.cz of the bloody shelter.there are still bloody holes in it.shit.ahh well.act,no one cares anymore.just
want to say,thank you chow for encouraging us,for appreciating us, believing in us and spuring us on and helping us to
unpitch.i think you rock.
ahh.off to order the unit tee tmr with yamaP.<3

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6:27 AM
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Saturday, January 28, 2006

at yixue's hse now.his eyes almost popped out when i told him that you dont need to pitched a tent for campcraft alr.
ugh.act,i'd rather pitch a tent.at least im notso cluesless abt that.
feel like a failure.really.but its cny,so cannot think abt sad stuff!
HEEEHEEE.

um,my girl cousins and i had a very,um,in depth talk just now.
what can i say?
at least cheryl's happy now.isnt that all thats impt?i guess it is.but i kinda liked her old bf.he was nice i guess.ahh.as long as she's happy,but its so i dont know,wasted?6 and a half years.oh well.i shall learn treasure all that i love from now on.not gonna let them slip away so easily frm nw on.yes.i might even get THAT courage i need!
wish me luck!

jamie,no matter what,you'll always be my best friend,no matter what.i know i can trust you.best friends forever okay?love you,sis.

feel the SUNSHINE;
8:08 AM
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Thursday, January 26, 2006

well.i just had an very enriching talk with pt just now.(:i think she prefers to refer to it as really
boring.but yes.i do know that i really think too much sometimes.
"why is it that some people are so pretty ,smart and everything and some others are so like,fat
short and stupid and stuff?so unfair"-me
"no.if youre pretty,you'll most prob be stupid.my sis says that god is fair.if youre ugly,you would
have other talents."-pt
"then i should be the most talented person on earth?but i havent found my talent yet!"-me
"YET.that means you'll find it."-pt.
yes,pt.i'll believe that i'll find something that i enjoy and am good at(: thanks for believing that
im not stupid like everyone else thinks.
oh a psychological test!from pt.
out of the words choose te one that appeals to you most.
something something nan shuo.
i chose shuo.and that meant that i have either 1,2 or even alot of people liking me now(?!)
and they would do anything i tell them to do.
how absurd.if only there is a person who would do anything for me ): its okay.if nobody is
willing to do anything for me,i'll do anything for myself.!see.notice my new positive outlook?and
since i cant ever be close to pretty,i'll learn to radiate beauty from inside.i know i still have a
long long long way to go but if someone just bekieves in me,i know i'll have the courage to
strive towards a better self.i will believe in myself.
sometimes i wonder,whats the point of liking someone when you dont tell them?how
meaningless.the feelings will fade one day if you dont express them and everything
will go back to normal.like nothing ever happened.oh well,easy to say.if i ever liked
anyone,i dont htink i'll have the courage to say it anyway.i dont know.mommy says
that im insecure.well,i used to deny it.but i guess i pretty much accept it now.well.
i know i'll never be one of the best.but i'll try.i wont give up.this i promise.
oh.its such an emo post,im feeling emo.ahh well.

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:28 AM
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

YES.i got sarah to change back my template for me already!
jamie screwed my other one up.sigh!
doing unit website now.tired.
taking a break.

AT NTUC:
i was looking at the magazines,suddenly,
"hello,baby" a husky voice said as a pair of arms went ard my shoulders
"WHAT THE HELL?!?" i half-shouted and turned ard.

it was sarah.bloody hell.i got the shock of my life.crazy woman!

"i lack motivation to go to school"-me
"why?is it cause your eyecandy died?"-sarah
"SHE DIDNT DIE.just that i dont see her ard anymore"
"same thing(?!).you should look for another eyecandy"
"crazy.you dont look for these sort of things.they just come."-me
"fine.DONT LOOK AND WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO MAGICALLY DROP ON YOUR HEAD,WONT YOU?"
"ouch.if she/he's as fat as you,i wont live."

i love my best pal!thanks,sarah.
im so tired.
thanks for making me laugh!

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:33 AM
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Sunday, January 22, 2006

really should thank jamie for changing this lee hom template for me seeing that my computer is down):
sigh.
lee hom is CUTE man!<3

thanks,jamie.
youre cute too!

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:43 AM
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Friday, January 20, 2006

im blogging at pt's hse nw!(:
supposed to do the unit webby now but candz is hogging the only usable comp):
my comp is spoilt man.sigh.
tmr is sentosa outing.outing my ass.np stuff agn.SIGH.
my fave phrase nw is kiss my ass.
i dont know why either.but yes.
i am officially part of the campcraft team now.
my weakness is rejecting people.
i like campcraft.its just the team and the politics,if you get what i mean.
i will try my best and not pull down my team.i will i will i will.
i hope i'll be good enough.
what the hell am i doing this for?
smth to this effect:"mdm lim recommended you, the cis recommended you"
excuse me but KISS MY ASS.
im a second choice and i'll always be,what bullshit?
i wont fall for it.i might be stupid,but not THAT stupid.
so why the hell did i agree?i dont know.
im so tired.
went for reap tdy.it was good seeing tht i finished both physics and bio tys in one and a half hrs.
im proud of my determination.i was sitting with angie love but we didnt sing!
we did WORK.<3!

whoo!everyone,welcome my single status.
i will not allow anyone to make me sad!
i am single and proud of it!
go to hell.i hope youre happy with her.
she's pretty anyway.i admit.happy together forever.
thanks for the past bittersweet 4 years.
thanks for all youve done for me.
i appreciate it.i really do.
bye.

I AM HAPPY.
shall CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES.
this kind of stuff wont get me dwn.
i love all my anatas and laopo and ouxiang and kbox partner!

feel the SUNSHINE;
1:14 AM
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